coming clean

I'm sorry for the unpredictability of my posts lately. I'd pitch you one excuse after another (running late! too busy! shark attack! zombie apocalypse!) but I know in my heart of hearts that the real reason why I haven't been as compelled to post lately is because -- ugh, how do I make this sound as non-melodramatic as possible? -- I just don't feel good about myself, gosh darn it.

I've long struggled with self-esteem problems, just like any other member of the female sex. Even though I've lost 10 pounds, my self-esteem is still in the pits. It's incredibly frustrating to not be able to fit into my favorite clothes, and incredibly frustrating to feel so limited by my own wardrobe because I'm convinced everything makes me "look fat." Whether or not this is actually true is irrelevant because I've found that as long as you feel unattractive, you'll look unattractive. It's weird that way.

I'm working on slowly pumping some positive energy back into my life, especially since I'm getting so sick and tired of my own moping. I can't even tell you how many times I've gotten mad at myself for being such a baby about bad hair days and "still-can't-fit-into-that-pencil-skirt" days. But I hope you guys will hang with me until I get that spring in my step again, whenever that day may come, lovely readers.

For now, here's a rather lackluster OOTD, where I buried myself under the loosest top I could find:

cami, j.crew
top, f21
cords, j.crew
sandals, aldo
bangle, kate spade
ring, f21
necklace, aerie

So as to not leave you all on a totally downer note, here's a lovely little dress I snagged last week from Ruche!


Isn't it darling? It's the 'Rays of Color' dress by Knitted Dove. I can't wait for it to get here! There's nothing quite like the promise of a pretty new frock to bring some joy, even if for just a few moments...